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( Coming home )
With his heart sinking with every move, he opens up his journal and tries to put up a filter]
[Broken Filter - Nezumi]
Nezumi, where are y-... [There's a long pause as he stares down at his journal. The filter broke.
It broke.
This isn't like before, this isn't like the time when Nezumi went missing for two weeks. No, last time he could at least make a filter and try to reach out to him but now he can't. Panic slowly starts to set in and he shakes his head frantically, nearly yelling into the journal]
[Broken Filter - Nezumi]
Nezumi!!! [The filter broke again] Dammit NO.
["I can't bear it! If I lost you here, right now. I wouldn't be able to stay sane.
I'll go mad."
He's stuck in between his words, sanity hanging by a simple thread. He wants to deny the truth. He has to deny the truth. Because it can't be true.
Nezumi made him a promise. He told him that he would come back every time... but you can't just come back to this place. There are no doors to get in or out. Once you're in, you're in. Once you're out, you're out. It's only by some unfortunate chance that you get dragged back again with or without your memories.
Somewhere in his mind, his brain is telling him that deep down maybe it's for the best. Now he won't get hurt or experimented on. But he let's his emotions get the best of him.
He can't just let Nezumi go. Not again. Not after he finally got to be by his side again after four years of waiting.
And he never told him...
So in his panic, he slams his journal shut and runs out of the apartment building, nearly tripping on himself in the process. Once he's outside, he starts yelling out Nezumi's name and starts to run around. He runs around the entire village, running into shops, bars and even the library, searching for someone who isn't here anymore.
He can't let him go... not now.]
With his heart sinking with every move, he opens up his journal and tries to put up a filter]
[Broken Filter - Nezumi]
Nezumi, where are y-... [There's a long pause as he stares down at his journal. The filter broke.
It broke.
This isn't like before, this isn't like the time when Nezumi went missing for two weeks. No, last time he could at least make a filter and try to reach out to him but now he can't. Panic slowly starts to set in and he shakes his head frantically, nearly yelling into the journal]
[Broken Filter - Nezumi]
Nezumi!!! [The filter broke again] Dammit NO.
["I can't bear it! If I lost you here, right now. I wouldn't be able to stay sane.
I'll go mad."
He's stuck in between his words, sanity hanging by a simple thread. He wants to deny the truth. He has to deny the truth. Because it can't be true.
Nezumi made him a promise. He told him that he would come back every time... but you can't just come back to this place. There are no doors to get in or out. Once you're in, you're in. Once you're out, you're out. It's only by some unfortunate chance that you get dragged back again with or without your memories.
Somewhere in his mind, his brain is telling him that deep down maybe it's for the best. Now he won't get hurt or experimented on. But he let's his emotions get the best of him.
He can't just let Nezumi go. Not again. Not after he finally got to be by his side again after four years of waiting.
And he never told him...
So in his panic, he slams his journal shut and runs out of the apartment building, nearly tripping on himself in the process. Once he's outside, he starts yelling out Nezumi's name and starts to run around. He runs around the entire village, running into shops, bars and even the library, searching for someone who isn't here anymore.
He can't let him go... not now.]
